feel like posting

yea. I kinda feel like posting. even though I don't know what to post, as usual. okay. I'll just give out some random things that's happening just around this time. ah grammar kacau

1. I can't sing. no, I mean it. Student Prince's songs, for Kathy's part, is damn hard. not getting use to the melody, and the high notes! it is high. high! I can only reach high E. that's the top. if I try to reach high G, yea I can make it but it sounds ridiculous, hideous, and loudly annoying. I hate my self for being arrogant. urgh.

2. next week is such a hell week. I think tuesday - chemistry try out, wed - math test, I think, and thursday - chemistry test. as long as I can remember, that's what's going on next week, and also there might be a slightest chance, for quizes. darn.

3. I regret damn much why I didn't put 'project' subject in the top list priority that I have to do last semester. it turns out that I didn't pass, and I have to do it again. again. again! meanwhile ALL my friends are so very happy that they don't have any longer to do with their project. just great

4. I don't know what's right and wrong. I don't know wether I have to follow the little voice indside my heart, or do what they think I have to do. in many ways, I see different options, I just don't know which one to choose, because I don't know what's the definition of the word 'right'. what 'right' really means. and how people and my self see that that is something right. hard to explain

5. I keep trying to find reasons and purposes. even though I know some things just don't have any reason to be. but I find it ridiculous to do something I haven't figure their purpose out. silly me.

6. home, or house. as I said before, my ego and I are too big for my house. I can't handle things that are not what I think it has to be. you know. if somebody did a mistake, a little mistake, I'm gonna be so pissed. I just want everything to be definitely like I want it to be done. I am such a selfish, ego-maniac person, who cannot control her temper. hate me for that.

7. there aren't good news, or things that happened lately, so I guess, I'm at the bottom of the fortune wheel right now. yea, right now.

oh well, not very great things to tell, I guess. just keep believing the quote 'no matter how good or bad a situation is, it will change soon'. but I don't think any situation I am in is changing right now. well, don't let this lousy post destroy your joy because tomorrow is a holiday! YAY! be happy. cheer for one relieving day.

have a good night.

.van!